Why should I do things that I do? Why should I listen to you?
Why should I solve economic applications of matrices when I want to caress my beloved’s tresses?
Why should I pursue masters in economics when my heart belongs to Ghalib?
Why did I take this up, if I want to give up?
Why am I here when my heart tells me to go elsewhere?
I am here because I have desires. I have desires to be rich on my own and enjoy luxuries with obligations to none. I am here because norms don’t let me switch from economics to literature, such is a future lecturer’s eligibility structure.
My head and heart are always in conflict, I love economics but technicalities get my heart hit. It doesn’t like getting hit you know.
I am Arjun from Mahabharata on the battle field. Indecisive, Insecure who doesn’t know.
I seek my Krishna in vain. In the end ,I only have to end my own pain.